I know I've been all about the food lately. I'm not always like this. It's just sometimes I have to find a way to anchor myself to the earth and food is one of the ways I do that. It has so many pleasing, comforting components. First off, anyone who knows me knows I don't do anything if I don't do it well. I like to cook and I like food and I both cook and eat well. But it is also a way for me to tangibly nurture my family which is something I need because of my deep seated insecurities about my mothering skills. That's right, surprise! It's one of the only things I'm not sure that I can do well, but I HAVE to do it. I can't say, "Well, this is not amongst my many varied set of skills, I'll call in a surrogate and pay her to do it." No, it's just me, Mommy.
And with so many things up in the air right now: do I want to keep working? will Dean go to work at Google? are we staying? are we moving? am i going back to school? kids.. job... school... house.. pets... those are a few balls to keep in the air. I just need to be able to prove that I did something good. Remember all those homecooked meals? Remember how you always had a stack of neatly folded clothes on Monday mornings? Remember how your sheets were always crisp and clean-smelling? Because, I tell you, I don't know what the hell I'm doing and this is all going so fast and my kids don't care that my hair is perfectly coiffed and my nails are done and my suit fits me oh-just-so. So I just do what I know I can do. I hope this all turns out okay in the end.
So what about Sundays? Crepe day! We love crepes. I made a double batch and we'll eat the leftovers with strawberries and whipped cream for dessert tonight. This morning we had them traditional style with homemade strawberry jam or butter and powdered sugar inside.