I've been a poor blogger of late. I don't know what to say except that I just haven't been feeling it. Sometimes I blog and I feel like I give too much away. Things are going really good right now with Dean and the girls. We have our usual ups and downs but I've been starting to think, "Why would I want to give any of that away here." I guess for a while it was a really good outlet but I have people to talk to and why, why? do it here when I can use it to connect with a live human being that is willing to be there for me.
I'm not saying I'm done. Just taking a break, reevaluating purpose and motive and eventually I'll be back... the same or different, I don't know. For now, what I do know is that anyone who wants to write me or talk to me- please do so- I welcome that. I do love to talk to people and connect with people. But those who just want to watch from afar and not share anything in return... I'm not really sure how I feel about that, especially when I both know who is out there and don't know who is out there. It's a creepy combo.
So, just saying it may be time for a little break from me. I've been doing this for a long time and its great as long as it doesn't interfere with real life. I'm going to try and do the real life thing for a while now. I'll let you know how it goes.
Oh. And p.s. I have a bug up my butt. Real love isn't... possessiveness. It's not fear. It's not being afraid of losing your social standing or your security. Wasn't it Ben Franklin who said that those who would sacrafice their freedoms for security deserved neither? If some accounting goes into your marriage about who will do your laundry or how much mooney you'll lose on the house... that isn't love, just greed, maybe a little laziness. No judgement here, I'm as guilty as the next person. I've just been thinking alot about this. The end. Heh.
I'm going to go drink some hot cocoa and go to bed.