So, I've been having trouble getting traction on the new blog. I don't know what it is, I'm just not motivated to write there... not to mention the design isn't even complete yet. I don't know. Now I'm waffling AGAIN. Maybe I'll come back here and write for a while and try to do some posting there concurrently, just to get things rolling. Or maybe it was a dumb idea to think I could blog anonymously- honestly, it just doesn't feel right to me.
When I started this blog, I did it to document my family life so the girls would have something to read. I've held true to that- sure, I've gone off track at times but I think this blog pretty accurately reflects who I am. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.
There are times when I want to blog but don't because there are things I can't say here publicly. Or, well, I could but then certain people would hate me. I'm not afraid of having people hate me, I just don't like the idea of hurting people so I can vent about certain things. I also have questioned the intelligence of putting stuff out there that violates the privacy of my girls and my husband. Ultimately, I've always come down on the point that once you put something out there publicly, then the issue of image and what people think becomes much less important. And I hate the idea of trying to be something we're not, trying to portray that we're this perfect, happy little family. We're happy, most of the time, but far, far from perfect. And I am a far from perfect mother.
For now, in brief, here's what we've been up to... soccer, soccer, soccer, for one thing. We have practice twice a week, plus two games a week- just for Vi's team. Avery's age group did not have teams this season and our schedule did not work out with the league's soccer academy and so Ave decided she wanted to do gymnastics and has been taking twice weekly lessons at a gym near here. Vi is doing fantastic at soccer, she's pretty amazing actually. I'd say she is one of the top two players on our team this season and while we have a younger team and a newer team than we've had before, we still have some good players. Vi can play pretty much anywhere on the field and is a decent goalie. I never put her in goal, though, she's too valuable to lose from the field. Ave is also doing a great job in gymnastics. She's very strong and agile so the skills come pretty easily to her.
Vi and I have been enjoying going next door to the Indian grocery to get chaat while Avery is at practice. We've been doing a fair amount of cooking these days, too. I make up a menu once a week and everybody gets a say on what they want for the week. The girls love being able to come home and check the menu hanging on the board to see what is for dinner. It saves me time because now I am shopping only once a week. We're having homemade pizza tonight- which we have almost every week because everyone loves it, especially since we keep a good stock of pizza toppings and everyone can choose what they want.
I'm not doing school this quarter. I have just been too busy with the girls and soccer and all the other activities. Maybe I'll go back next quarter. I'm not sure. Things feel really up-in-the-air right now. I have made so many plans and now.. I don't know. I really don't know for sure what I want to do. I have been writing, writing, writing. I haven't been sending any pages to anyone because everything is so jumbled right now. I am rewriting my first 120 pages of the book I started. I have another couple chapters of another, different, young adult book that Vi has been encouraging me to write and listening to chapters of... What I need to do is start carving out more time to dedicate to the writing-it's just *hard*!
ANyhow, that's about all.. life goes on as usual, nothing major happening. Hope all our friends and family out there are keeping well. Peace out.